9 Mar
The Dreaded, Body-Mind Divorce
A marriage with the unseen remains dubious. The body-mind entity, a determine opponent seeks a permanent connection.
Sadly, the forces of unreasonable desires, unobtainable happiness, and chronic worry; believes it owns me.
I blame only myself. I conditioned the beast with chronic lies of, “I Am This,” and “I Am in Control,” dialogs. The marriages to these falsities, both sad and distressing, currently obstruct my egotistical divorce. After years of professed devotional commitment, ego refuses to permit my exit without a fight.
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“I Want Out”
Spiritual freedom from an egotistical marriage comes at a lofty price. My true nature is a foreign invader that met furious resistance to become my new mate. Sadly, in the beginning, I fought aside my ego; believing its lies that began in my youth.
The attachment to self-identity began at an early age and quickly flooded my thinking. Our family, society, and world, all shouted! “Who Are You?” Who AM I, and how do I insure my position in this world. I soon attracted my flirting ego. My quest for self-identity propelled a insatiable appetite of unreachable desires. Ego and I married soon after my tenth birthday.
My infectious marriage erected a house of illusions. For example, some of my ego’s illusionist magic, (1) desires just out of touch, (2) happiness always fleeting, or (3) need just one more break and everything will be fine.
The cheating ego produces only unresolved past issues and hopes of better future. It flooded my mind with unobtainable requests relentlessly. Remarkably it turned around and provided the anger for my dissatisfaction. Cheating Bastard!
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“Leave the Keys on the Dresser”
Possessed by a cyclical unsatisfied mind I proceed through life a married malcontent. I did not recognize my true nature. I begin to disguise my beast, at my height of delusion people wondered about my sanity. I exhibited constant anger and stress.
Family and friends questioned who would appear, pseudo-happy brooding breast or Mr. Unrecognizable. So many identities required countless disguises, I lived in a marriage of lies for years.
My divorce from the egotistical mind is hard-hitting and undecided. However, I experience new conscious experiences often, which boost my faith. A prescription for divorce from ego rest not in text or advice. No one can help you with this process.
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“How to Start Over”
You must free yourself. The person, whom said, “I Do” must challenge the ego marriage. External supplements possess no value. Praying, meditating or yoga are clever egotistical props. A egotistical trick, wrapped inside of God, a old stale trick to induce attachment to an external object. “You Are What You Seek!”
Stay in your heart, change your consciousness and the divorce will occur. Your natural being, needs no instructions, you will find truth, when you look for it.
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The Invisible Dragon
8 Mar
“The Sin Remover”
“Do you feel anything? Nothing. Absolutely, Nothing!”
The Invisible Dragon, replying to a television evangelists.
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Refresh the Spirit
Wash sin away with the water, I was told. Several friends swear by the practice, steadfastly insisting, water removes the horrors of misdeeds. I got wet. A low audible mystic mantra, a friend persisted, wash away all dreadful transgressions. After several mind-numbing minutes, I forgot why I was mumbling, and in addition, the incoherent jargon frightened me.
Close your eyes, and listen to the heart on a city park bench, and sin, vanish. After filling out the police report of my mugging, I tossed the practice. Read the Koran, and Allah will take away sin, I received a full-cavity body search, while flying to Cleveland. I am positive; the airport official had a wedding ring on before he…oh God! I shudder to imagine, where it..Agggh!
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Sin No more!
Stop eating pork! There rest your trouble, your filthy diet! I like goat. Can I eat goat? Yes, what a foolish question, my friend shouts back. God cleanse all things, except pig. Trust me on this, it is complicated, God and pig have issues.
Give away all your position, live in a tent, in the middle of the desert, and follow us, another friend requested. The first night, several people became really ill after drinking some punch, so I called home for a plane ticket, another body search, ouch!
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What are Friends for?
I have friends who suggest sin remedies. Over the years, I tested some and contested others, all the while, seeking “the fix it” to my soul. ‘
There remain more friends and sin remedies; the search for total sin annihilation, my noble cause. Out there, somewhere, a cure, I travel the world over, looking for the elusive spell.
“The Sin Remover.”
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Disclaimer: This story, absolute humor, it is not intended to make light of anyone’s religion. Just a short, comical, and insightful look inside the universe.
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The Invisible Dragon
6 Mar
Gods and Our Selfish Motives
I imagine, we are all selfish for some acceptable reasons. My children garner my undivided loyalty, protecting our communal relationship, a reasonable cause.
As well, the relationship with my wife, I would not ransom her for the universe. And so, without wavering, I refuse to compromise those relationships to secure the relationships of others. Am I alone in this predicament?
By the way, I demand total autonomy to follow my own intuition. And so, whatever suspicions which may circumferences my journey, my inquisitiveness minus commentary or disdain would be commendable. Freedom, to be wrong, right, or insanely childish is a God-given right–would you not believe?
I want my God, my Way
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I define my own existence. As a child, I seldom desired following another person’s perceptions, remarkably, my Mother’s view found themselves against my thick perceptions. For example, I steadfastly dismissed her demands to accept religion. In its place, my freedom to create my own God. A ravening freedom manic at conception; I did not want to be led. Am I alone in this predicament?
Are we not ultimately coerced by family, culture or tradition in selecting deities? The reasons, often complex, yet simple when concerning the selection of Gods. I proudly predict, selections are self-interest rationales that suits personality, characteristics, and cultural norms more so than faith.
The Perfect Fit
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We select Gods that best evoke our contentment, ok, I said it. Our spiritual selections, do not relinquish spiritual facts or unexplainable religious artifacts as proof of a deity. Not surprisingly, the Godly engagement, most likely occurred, while being guided by parents, prodded by friends or in your bedroom after a night of unprotected sex.
Some select Gods that resembles humans, statues, or silence space. Ultimately, we select Gods who care about our well-being. We desire a selfish God. Do we not warrant those attractions? We desire deities, where if one does right, the deities does right by us. Did we not negotiate this deal for our obedience? Are earthly happiness, acquisitions, and ever-lasting eternity our ill-gotten gains for keeping the faith? I wonder Am I alone in this predicament?
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The Invisible Dragon
4 Mar
Can Man Truthfully Teach God?
All words possess fallibility. Whether spoken, written or insinuated with hand gestures, words possess representations of another person’ thoughts.
Words originated with grunts, art painting on walls, external object display, group movements and eventually morphed into language.
More significant, words preceded creation, in the beginning, words described our unexplainable environment.
What does this mean for the Dragon? This should be not surprise, I have no clue how to describe my source. In other words, I am not pompous enough to believe my words define God, more so, than the television minister or a drunk pushing a cart.
Words Misguide Us
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As a matter of fact, I believe words demand the least respect concerning spiritual restoration. The howl of a lone wolf speaks louder, than a million men shouting about God. Words embed perceptions, misconceptions, truth, and lies. When are we not sure words convey nothing more than artificial jargon.
The Dragon’s tongue, reflects the ego mind, and a spiritual consciousness at times. I do not profess a secret to Tao, God, Source or the mystery. Finely dressed in an Armani suit or resting atop a leaf, I have no clue about the whereabouts of God. The only clue I have , I have no clue.
This may be unsettling for some, vast amounts of words were recited by men that otherwise. I will not contest their opinions or facts on their opinion. Some or all, may be right. However, I posses no faith in God, which accompany man’s tongue.
I Trust my Heart
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Consequently, my spiritual restoration desired no traditional stories or ceremonial rituals. I selected or my source selected, a path of darkness for my spiritual edification. 
I retraced my steps to a time before birth. The experience, difficult and exhausting, the hardest expose I ever endured. The experience, best described, “I AM” somewhat free of God language.
I trusted no person and found “I AM.” I sought everything, and discover nothing. I surrendered to darkness and awaken by light.
You see, again words are tricky, also even confusing, when spoke by the Dragon. However, as mentioned, if one profess mastery of God, I retreat into darkness.
In the darkness, man’s words do not exist, that’s where “I AM.” I always free with my source.
Whatever that source may be.
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The Invisible Dragon
3 Mar
Where is Your Kingdom of God?
My self-realization, remains a mystery, too unbelievable to conceive. A short glimpse, in my past, reveals a stream of mental agitations rightly suited for a psychopath. I occupied for years a mind infected with rambling egotistical thoughts.
Fortunes, fame, and acquisitions propelled my existence. I failed immeasurable amounts of times in this illusionist world. I desired an external definition of self-worth. I was a perfectly insane.
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“The ultimate truth is so simple. It is nothing more than being in the pristine state. That is all that needs to be said.” Ramana Maharishi
A Stormy Sea
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The chase navigated by my ego, nearly achieved its hidden-purpose, my lonely self-destruction. My obsessed mind of endless attachments, constant thinking, and mental restlessness positioned my exit many times. Fortunately, my path to spiritual awareness existed through this portal, this burnt out life. Remarkably and thankfully, my spiritual restoration, would take place on earth. Again, thank God.
“The kingdom of God will not come if you watch for it. Nor will anyone be able to say, ‘It is here’ or ‘It is there.’ For the kingdom of God is within you.” Jesus
I never prescribed to the acceptance of a God mediator. Whatever path gifted, I desired to find of my own accord. I do not want to someone’s map to my salvation. For example, world religions saturated with angry Gods, restricted diets, forbidden wearing of clothing, no way would these stories accompany my inner-journey.
I AM…?
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I sought a definition to “I AM” without declaring obedience to man’s interpretation of God. Trust me, this is a road less-traveled, a mature mind, unobstructed by man’s ideals of God.
To pull someone out of the mud, you must first step into the mud yourself.” Hasidic Master Israel Baal Shem Tov
If the kingdom of God is within me, as Jesus and so many spiritual teachers profess. So than, I must go into the mud and bring myself to the light.
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Tao Te Ching Verse 7
The Master is available to all people
and doesn’t reject anyone.
She is ready to use all situations
and doesn’t waste anything.
This is called embodying the light.
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What is a good man but a bad man’s teacher?
What is a bad man but a good man’s job?
If you don’t understand this, you will get lost,
however intelligent you are.
It is the great secret.
Dragon will talk later about Kingdom.
The Invisible Dragon
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